I could so easily be bitter with the world right now.
4 days ago everything was pretty perfect. Just back from China, having had an awesome time. D and I went a whole three weeks together with no arguments and coming back with an even stronger relationship and more love for each other. We were both really positive and things were really starting to happen. We were even seriously starting to discuss our future together – you know, as you do after seven years together.
But then something happened early Sunday morning to try and upset the apple cart. A freak accident, something unpredictable, unforeseen, sudden and serious. And now our world has been thrown into complete disarray…with the future partially unknown.
I won’t go into details now. I will save that for later down the track as it’s still too fresh in my and the kids mind, and D is yet to realise the seriousness of everything. All I can say is this – we are blessed as it could have been so much worse. We are also blessed as the last few months I BELIEVE we have really lived our lives. We also arrived at a good place in our relationship, I re-found my health, we had one of the most amazing life-time moments on the Great Wall of China (I believe I said that I could die happy…and no, he didn’t propose…everyone is so obsessed with that lately!).
Life is unusual, unpredictable, exciting, scary, and constantly tests you. It also constantly tests your relationships. I am looking at this latest test with positivity – although at times that I try to limit, I do freak out. This too will pass, and I believe we, and us as individuals, plus those around us, will bounce back with a vengeance.
Let that piddly shit go, get over it, move on, live in the now, enjoy every moment, and love one another.
You just never know.