I’ve never considered myself as an ambitious woman.
In saying that, I do suspect that people perceive me as ambitious which never ceases to surprise me!
In all seriousness though, most of the time I feel like I’m going through life paddling frantically to keep my head above water!
On the flip side, I also go through spurts of ‘doing lots of stuff’, where I’m like a girl on fire after which I crash and burn (as I am now after 12 days straight of working days and evenings…of course my body was gonna crash!), hopefully, to rise again like a phoenix.
Is that ambitious? I certainly don’t see myself that way.
Yes, I am passionate about many things. And of course, I want to do things, achieve things, and live a certain way. And most certainly, I want to do what I love. But ambitious? No, I don’t see myself that way at all.
I guess it all comes down to your personal definition of the word ‘ambitious’.
I picture being ambitious as some cut-throat suit-lady climbing the corporate ladder whilst treading on everyone else with her stilettos… Now that is SOOOOOO not me (although I do love stilettos!). But is that a kinda screwed up way to look at ‘ambitious’?
I was recently featured in the Freelancer in the Spotlight series for the month of April, and to quote myself;
There’s … the expectation in some areas that freelancers will write for peanuts. It can be devaluing, but admittedly I took the hit to initially build up my portfolio.
Yep, I’ve written for peanuts and admittedly this has been devaluing. But changing careers and starting a writing career at the age of 37 has been hard, as it would be for anyone changing careers. You don’t expect to be paid the big bucks straight up. Now that would be egotistical (or is it ambitious?).
To be honest, I never had any expectations that I would earn any money writing. The fact that I’ve earned something – now that’s bloody brilliant! But to be honest with you – and you are going to think I am so CRAY CRAY – I prefer writing for free…
There are such projects you would sell your arm to write for. Whether its an organization, cause or topic you are passionate about, the words flow through your fingers like water, leaving you feeling elated and like you are walking on air. These are what I call ‘love projects’.
I told you you would think I was crazzzzzy!
So here’s where I defer to the official definition courtesy of Google:
Ambitious: having or showing a strong desire and determination to succeed.
Okay, I admit I wholeheartedly want to do what I love. I also have a hard-work mentality (most of the times, to my detriment). And do I want to prove some people wrong? Hell yes! And I will definitely put both hands up to attest to the fact that I am a chronic people pleaser, something I’m trying to change but am failing at dismally. But ambitious – screw that. That just sounds like too much hard work! In all honesty, I just want to do what I love and live a more peaceful life That’s about it. I want to be happy. I want to help others. And I want to live my life with those I love doing things that I love.