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Discovering Happiness In Your Own Skin

I’m feeling a bit ‘blah’ at the moment. A bit stressed. A bit unhealthy. And slightly all over the place. 

I’m also really, really tired and am having moments where I want to sit down and cry like a baby.

Okay, I feel like shit. I feel fat and lumpy (and yes, I know ‘fat’ isn’t a feeling but that’s like 30 years of un-conditioning to do – I’m working on it!). My clothes feel tight on me, my skin is itchy and teenager-ish, my innards aren’t feeling quite right, and I’m fucking knackered!

To be honest, I’m not feeling 100% comfortable in my own skin. The only thing that has been feeling good is my hair! I’m rocking my hair at the moment. Oh, and I’m feeling really creative…now that’s awesome! Okay, my nails are growing too so it ain’t all bad as those suckers have been suffering for a couple of years!

When do I feel good about myself?

When I feel good about myself, as in, when I like myself, I actually don’t realise I feel good about myself or happy. Apparently I just ooze that shit and help others feel the same way 🙂 I love feeling good about myself, bumps, lumps and all.  Just like JT sang, rock your body.

I feel good about myself when I’m having fun. Fun usually comes unplanned, and it’s generally foolish and stupid. Like two weekends ago when my soon to be 12 year old step son wrapped himself in a bloody blanket and pretended to be a caterpillar and then hid around a corner to try and scare D. I almost literally pissed myself! That is my idea of stoopid, happy F – U – N!

I also feel good about myself when I’m writing. As I write this post I feel happiness emanating from my being. I love writing. It makes me feel whole. It makes me feel real.

Writing + Janine = Happiness.

I’m so thankful that I found my writing voice again

I’m prone to adult acne, fatigue and a dodgy belly, so when my skin feels good, my stomach / innards feel good and I’m not fatigued I feel healthy and happy. The whole equation doesn’t happen often, but when it does – look out world!

I feel happy when I feel happy. Does that even make sense? Potentially only someone who has experienced depression would understand this one…those waves of happiness are addictive! And if you make me smile and laugh I love you! There is nothing better. Just prepare yourself to receive a lot of looks / stares if you are with me, because I smile big and laugh loud!

Travelling makes me feel good. I guess this is why I love travelling so much, it makes me happy! It liberates my mind and my body. The first time I travelled was the first time I felt comfortable in my own skin and truly happy. It was my introduction to happiness, to who I could be, and to who I was… Travel changed me. It really did.

Planning a wedding is also making me feel good, because, as it turns out, I’m a big girl! Who would have thought I would get excited at the concept of a bloody wedding. Not me! Man. That shit excites me and makes me happy, I can easily spend hours on Pinterest browsing wedding stuff, and my introvert self will happily talk for hours with someone about wedding stuff.

The whole frickin’ thing makes me feel happy – aside from the whole dress concept. Now that shit is freaking this little ripper out!

To sum it up in a nutshell, it’s when I’m living in the moment that I feel happiest in my skin. I guess this is why I love the concept of mindfulness so much.

What about you? When do you feel happiest in your own skin? 

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  • Vidya Sury
    April 3, 2015 at 8:43 pm

    Hugs Janine. (By the way, in the sexy face pic you remind me of Cate Blanchett!) Great list of “feeling good in my skin” moments! Crazy how it all piles up sometimes. I remember I used to rant to my Mom and she’d keep encouraging me to talk – and then – when I was done, make me list all the things I wish I could do – and urge me to get started and pretend to crack a whip! That would make me laugh so much.

    Love!

    • Janine Ripper
      April 9, 2015 at 7:46 pm

      Ooh now that’s a lovely compliment! Your Mum sounds so cute 🙂

  • Absolutely Tara
    April 4, 2015 at 12:00 am

    Loved hearing about what you’re thinking right now, even if it’s that you feel fat (Because who hasn’t had that moment? ). Great link up.

    • Janine Ripper
      April 9, 2015 at 7:31 pm

      Exactly! We all have our ‘fat’ moments don’t we. As long as we snap out of it!

  • swati Bassi
    April 4, 2015 at 3:07 am

    Read your post for the first time today.
    Liked it.
    Happiness is a feeling of well being. It comes from inside.
    Best moments of true happiness comes from sharing, caring and doing simple stuff.
    Best wishes to you.

    • Janine Ripper
      April 9, 2015 at 7:33 pm

      Hi Thanks for stopping by, reading and commenting. It definitely comes from the inside out…Best wishes to you to!

  • Mackenzie Glanville
    April 4, 2015 at 12:04 pm

    Don’t stress too much about wedding dresses, honestly they are the best made dresses and seem to hide imperfections (if you think of them as imperfections) . You will look amazing. You are loved by D just the way you are, he is not marrying you in the hope you will be 10 kilo’s less (or whatever), he is choosing you today, tomorrow and everyday just the way you are!

    • Janine Ripper
      April 9, 2015 at 7:37 pm

      Thanks lovely lady! It was actually really enjoyable and all of the dresses were nice. The prices on the other hand – sheesh!

  • Eloquent Mind
    April 5, 2015 at 7:57 am

    Awww ! It’s ok to feel a little down on some days. In fact, I feel the moments after that are the best because it makes me happy again 🙂 You look ravishing in the first photo. 🙂

    Trying on wedding dresses – oooh that sounds exciting ! 🙂 Just like you, even I love it when I am healthy, when I write, when I am doing what I love and when I am happy…

    Great post and always keep smiling. 🙂

    • Janine Ripper
      April 9, 2015 at 7:38 pm

      Thanks for the compliment! The wedding dress shopping was actually really enjoyable – aside from the price tags! I will keep smiling – thanks! Big hugs x

  • Joanne T Ferguson
    April 7, 2015 at 9:29 am

    Honestly life is too short to stress about a dress! A lovely post today that brightened my day
    #ibabloggers

    • Janine Ripper
      April 9, 2015 at 7:35 pm

      Thanks Joanne. It was actually a whole lot more enjoyable than I had ever expected it to be!

  • Teresa (embracing the spectrum)
    April 7, 2015 at 11:40 am

    I’ve felt the same way you do today all day today and I don’t think I’m PMSing…

    • Janine Ripper
      April 9, 2015 at 7:36 pm

      Yeh PMS is a bit of a myth really…in this house anyway. I can still bring it out as an excuse when needed though!

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  • Kimberly Hilbert
    April 7, 2015 at 7:48 pm

    Thinking about the positives and the good things in my life always makes me feel better. Good luck with the wedding planning. That scares me more than excites me. I was going to do a small wedding and my mom started talking and within 10 minutes there were over 50 people on the list. I know, that’s considered a small wedding, but it sent me over the top in anxiety. We went to the Justice of the Peace. 2 people were there, plus us for a grand total of 4. That’s what I call a small wedding.

    • Janine Ripper
      April 9, 2015 at 7:45 pm

      Go you. Our list is up to 90…heaps bigger than expected. I was anxious but it was more about people getting along and not fighting. That’s what freaks me out. But we’ve talked to everyone so fingers crossed everyone just comes and has fun. Its not until January anyhow…

  • Kristin
    April 9, 2015 at 1:25 am

    I remember feeling a very similar way when I went wedding dress shopping. Once you find one that you like you will feel better and will want to try more. I always feel better when I do a little something simple for myself, like get my nails done. It is a small thing that can really help boost confidence!

    • Janine Ripper
      April 9, 2015 at 7:40 pm

      You were so right Kristin. I really enjoyed the experience and want to try more! I made sure I did my hair that morning and felt good so that I could look at myself minus my inner critique! Didnt find a dress (well I did but it was way to expensive) but am looking forward to trying more!).

  • Marie
    April 9, 2015 at 3:15 am

    Rock it!

    • Janine Ripper
      April 9, 2015 at 7:34 pm

      I will channel my inner Marie 🙂 just without the pole!

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