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Do you remember who you wanted to be?

Do you remember who you wanted to be before the world told you who you should be?

Do you remember who you wanted to be before the world told you who you should be? 

Not really?

It happens to a lot of us, so don’t feel ashamed.

When I was a kid I wanted to be a writer. I also wanted to be a lawyer, but one of my teachers ‘advised’ me I wasn’t smart enough to be a lawyer, and becoming a writer, well, there wasn’t much of a life in that, was there?

I wish I hadn’t listened to her … although I’m pretty glad I didn’t pursue a career in law…

Writing on the other hand. My passion has always been there, bubbling away just under the surface.

After struggling to finish a creative writing course at University, I left feeling aded. I’d gotten a taste of the writing community and didn’t like it. It didn’t seem welcoming or supportive. Instead it seemed cliquey. Snobbish. Pretentious. It was so far out of my league it wasn’t funny, and if that was what it took to be a writer, did I really want to be one? It didn’t matter whether I fit in though because obviously I wasn’t good enough. My tutor told me as much. And so I suffered a lengthy case of writer’s block (I’m talking YEARS) and lost any ounce of confidence I had left.

What do you want in life?

When you grew up you got a job.

Coming from a working class family of farmers and miners, working hard for the money in a job you didn’t necessarily like was the ‘norm.’

A job was a means to an ends. A way to survive. It’s what your grandfather did, and your father, and it’s what you would have to do. You might not like it but you’d pay the bills, get married, buy a house, pop out a few kids, go on a few holidays, and then you’d get sick and die.

SHIT!

Was that really what life was about?

I mean, I wasn’t the atypical girl and for most of my life the last thing I wanted to do was to get hitched, lock myself into a mortgage, and pop out some kiddlywinks. The job on the other hand, well, it would support my travel habit, wouldn’t it?

Moving into a corporate job, I became corporatised and forgot what I really wanted to do in life.

I wore a suit and heels, networked at the local bars, drank coffee, gossiped and worked a shit-load of overtime. Working myself up the ladder, I was pretty awesome at writing business documents, project plans, strategies, epic emails. That was about it. Sapped of all creativity and emotion, I forgot who I really was and even how to write.

My time in the corporate sector wasn’t all bad even though I tend to focus on the bad side of it all because there was a lot of shit I’d rather forget, and sure, I left with a bad taste in my mouth – burnt out, and a shell of the woman I was, but I also left with some pretty awesome, lifelong friends, my now-husband, and some wonderful memories. I also left with the inclination I was meant for something different.

 

What are your dreams? For what is life without dreams?

I am so much clearer on it all now.

On what I want. On what I love doing. On my values and priorities. Even on how I want to live.

I’m also clearer on what I don’t want. What I don’t love. Who I don’t want to be around. And on how I don’t want to live. And since I am so much clearer on what they all are, it makes this whole living business so much easier!

Admittedly there will be hurdles to jump, fires to put out, and lots of unforeseen – shit – but that’s life. There is a silver lining to every cloud, no matter how shitty. I’m certain of that.

My ‘work in progress’ (or shall I say ‘masterpiece’?) wont be complete until my life’s end. But until that very day I will continue to work at it. To embrace it. To give it my best shot. I will continue to fill my life with things I love. With happiness. With positivity. And I will continue to learn. To grow. To try new things. And to do what I love.

Finding Your Why

I created Finding Your Why to help others like me. To help put them back in touch with who they were before the world told them who they should be. To help them find their why a little earlier then I did!

Finding Your Why is a little workbook chock full of reflective and insightful exercises, exercises that helped me pull my life back together. And no, as you can see, it wasn’t easy (it still isn’t). But in finally waking up and admitting I needed to make some changes in my life, well, that was the start I needed.

What are your priorities?

I designed this workbook to step you through a process of reflecting on your life as it is now, what isn’t working for you, what is causing you stress and health issues, and what is missing. It will also help you pinpoint your values, priorities, and passions… something a lot of us tend to forget in our busy lives! By the end of your journey (yes, I dropped the ‘j’ word), you will be a whole lot clearer on what’s not working for you and on what you want.

And do you want to know something?

You don’t even have to subscribe. That’s right. I’m giving the workbook away totally free because I want to help others avoid the mistakes I made, or learn from them faster!

So go on, grab your free workbook. I want you to have it. It really is time to start focussing on you.

 Finding your why. So go on, grab your free workbook. I want you to have it. It really is time to start focussing on you.

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  • Noemi
    August 22, 2016 at 7:48 pm

    I can relate to what you wrote. I feel like I completely threw away my life for years because I was afraid of failing, because people often let me down. Sometimes I wonder if I still have a chance to become who I really am.
    Thanks for writing this.

    • Janine Ripper
      August 23, 2016 at 11:24 am

      Oh Noemi, What I’ve realised is you always have the chance! It’s never too late 🙂 I was in my late 30’s when I started to work it out. Others I know are in their 40’s, 50’s and even 60’s! Fear of failure is definitely a biggy but that’s how you learn and grow. If you are into reading and haven’t read them yet check out Daring Greatly and Rising Strong by Brene Brown. I’ve also written a post on conquering the fear of failure on this blog. They might help 🙂

      • Noemi
        August 31, 2016 at 9:58 pm

        Thanks, I will read your post and I will look for those books!

  • Marie
    September 4, 2016 at 5:41 am

    Ditto! I wasted so much time not beliving in myself. But, at least we’re here now. Some people never do.

    • Janine Ripper
      September 5, 2016 at 3:47 pm

      Better late then never hey!

  • Chasa Fulkerson
    September 4, 2016 at 8:54 pm

    I absolutely love this!! Thanks!

    • Janine Ripper
      September 5, 2016 at 3:47 pm

      You’re most welcome xx

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